Sudden Realisation

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My first dip, not bad three months into the year. I have started re-reading books on the craft of writing that I haven’t read for over a decade. I went to bed last night and fell asleep just before I became depressed at the sudden realisation that I cannot do it all.

Last month I realised the importance of having a writing schedule. My March table is already looking very full. I had hoped with a little organisation and a determined attitude I would be able to meet all deadlines without the stress of the final week of February. I am half way through writing a short story which was due for submission today, I just don’t have a full enough idea for the twist, I don’t know the characters well enough and I realised that I had to make a choice.

Do I carry on writing the story and send it anyway on a wing and a prayer?

Or

Do I work on the characters, discover the twist, see the full picture, write it over time and use it for a submission later in the year?

I have woken up and decided on the latter. It is frustrating especially as I have known about this competition for years, have journals filled with other entries from previous years that I didn’t submit and 2013 is not any different. Next year I WILL ENTER IT! I WILL DO IT! I need to build up my skills as a story writer again, have time to edit and proof. I need to breathe life into my characters.

I have decided to make a proposal for a book commision and have a lot of work and research to do this week to enable me to produce the best proposal that I can. I need to focus on that and let other opportunities slip past, that’s hard for a writer, right?

My sudden realisation is I cannot do it all, we (Mr G. and I) are currently very busy moving forward, (disclosing details later) with work and everything else I feel like one of those stretchy toys and I am pulled to full capacity.

Have you experienced this? Is anybody able to submit everything they want to?

I guess, like all things in life, choices need to made… I just hope I make the right ones!

5 responses »

  1. Although I’m sorry to hear you missed the deadline on this years submission, it’s somewhat comforting to know others go through the same struggles and have the same thoughts as I do. Makes us all a little more human and on the same level.Not to mention, helpful and motivating to others as well. Good luck with the rest of your March schedule, I’m sure everything will fall into place if you make it so 🙂 Thanks for sharing these thoughts.

    • Thanks Marisa, I think one of the reasons I blogged this was to offer comfort to others who live the same sort of lives. I am sure the conflicts we face as writers are always going to be there in some form or other, no matter how successful we are.
      There’s always 2014!

      I think we can be our own worse critics too. We should all give ourselves a break this month… Speak kindly to ourselves & balance our time as best we can.

  2. All the time. For some reason when others impose a deadline I tend to be more accountable on bigger things. I think it also has to do with how much time we think everything on our plate will take. I am bad at judging how much time finishing a chapter, or draft or editing will take. I do try to learn from my mistakes or the ways I’ve become better organized, even though I still miss some self -imposed deadlines. Good luck on your proposal this week!

    • Thanks. I am looking over all the paperwork for the proposal again tonight for the 2nd time. Must make sure I get it done by the end of the weekend.
      Thank you for leaving your thoughts, it is comforting to know we all face similar trials in the writing process.
      This morning I wrote and submitted 3 poems. It took the best part of 2hrs and involved lots of editing! At least I did it though…

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